This really sucks and then again it dont.
I am leaving to defend the united states but to do that i have four months of training to go through. I know that in the long run it will be good for me its just...well i really didnt have much time to prepare for it and now its two days away. Well stuff hapens and then you die.. so hey i guess make the best with what you got and live your days to the fullest cause your only here for a little while.